like a wildflower.

"I don't know what direction I'm going in, but I know how I want to feel..." -gg renee

like this...a wildflower.
free and certain that as i effortlessly grow - i'll always be nourished and watered

lately, i have been feeling just. like. this. :))
it's such a beautiful feeling and i am manifesting more and more of how i want to feel, every.single.day.

before i started this deep dive, i would focus on who i wasn't, what i didn't have, and what wasn't happening in my life.

what you focus on will grow, right?

so as resentment started to grow, mental paralysis of my creativity started to become a constant and my energy level suffered let alone my confidence in completing simple tasks....

yea, i became a version of myself i did not know, recognized or loved.

then, one morning -- i woke up thinking about wildflowers and how beautiful they are in all their colors, lengths, shapes, sizes, scents, etc. the word effortless came to mind and i began to really value the ease in personal growth by allowing the Universe to take care of what i didn't have to --

trust/certainty.

deep diving into my own insecurities and inner struggles with what i know i deserve. logically, it's a no brainer. why wouldn't i deserve the abundance of life, love, peace and happiness. but of course, doubt, worry and fear sneaks in where there are empty spaces, so i am committed to filling those gaps with more love and more trust that all my needs will be met as i continue to deep dive into nourishing my spiritual, mental, physical and emotional self.

and grow, like a wildflower. ;)

xo, me.

Nights like this....

I miss Philadelphia. 

Because, home is home...be it in my heart or amongst the familiar faces and places that shaped me. :) 

the removal of such...

ciao Universe!

it rained here in sunny southern california :) most people don't think we experience 'weather' lol but we do. i welcome this rain, it's so refreshing and cleansing. the sun is out and the trees and flowers are bright and beautiful, the birds are chirping -- it's such a perfect morning. 

i woke up early today, 6:30 to be exact and the rain made me think about the word removal -- and all that we don't let go of or get rid of. symbolically, the rain cleansing LA this morning made me feel so clear of clutter that i have allowed to build up within in, on me, around me --it's necessary to remove it in order for us to grow and become more open!

i understand why people cleanse their bodies. i used to do it on a quarterly basis and i think i will start doing that again. it puts you in a mindset of being more aware of what we put in our bodies and what we allow around our bodies, minds, spirits. 

i also have been challenging myself to stop doing things that i do not enjoy or bring pleasure to me. i ended a volunteer job i had the other day because it no longer served my spirit -- the energy and atmosphere wasn't serving the purpose it should have been, and i do not regret it. i am still in search of a place to practice my yoga and really become immersed in the culture there, this place was not that place -- and that is okay. it was my first experience here in LA, and in life period -- and i look forward to having many more experience to grow and mature my practice!

i am learning that part of be-coming has EVERYTHING to do with awareness of self. what works, what doesn't -- what hurts, what feels good, etc. etc. every morning i have been meditating on the idea of aligning myself with the Universe -- letting go of things i have chosen to worry about or become doubtful of, such as money, bills, debt. faith and worry do not mix and i am committed to staying faithful and trusting that God already has a plan. the blessing is already here! 

so, i say all of this to continue on a path of removing what no longer works -- my spiritual mentor Mark Nepo would call that sacrifice, as it brings us closer to spirit. i value that and i want to become closer, so the shedding must happen!

let's be magical :))

xo, me. 

morning muses

do you have a muse?

                                                                           
someone or something that inspires you, encourages you and challenges you to do more -- and by more, i mean more with yourself, your life, your creativity, your loving, living, health -- all of you!

i'd like to think that i have a muse. it would be incredibly cliche to say that "life" is my muse, because there is so much to life -- but in some ways, life is my muse. 

life brings, rather -- the Universe has brought people, places, opportunities and experiences that all could be grouped into my box labeled, muse.

when needed, i pull out a memory that really pushes me through the limits i have placed on myself. recently, an email exchange with a new friend encouraged me to really consider yesterday as a springboard to being all that i didn't allow myself to be yesterday, today. in retrospect, though i am the same person, mentally, every day i become stronger..and her words just confirmed that strength.

i loved the conversation we had because it really made me recognize the gifts that were unfolding and have unfolded in my life. and the day before any of those things happened, there was doubt and fear and worry.

new day, new chance. 

and lots and lots of mew muses. life gives us all that we need, when we need it -- exactly, perfectly. think about it.

every morning gives me the opportunity to restore what i didn't allow myself to create yesterday. thankful for the eyes to see the beauty, ears to hear nature and my limbs and right mind to experience life to the fullest are always my first prayers. i create space within the Universe -- like birds do with their calls -- and ask to be led and fed as my day unfolds. 

today has been an excellent day so far -- worthy of two entries :) 

xo, me.